We all have our imperfections. Things that we don’t like about ourselves, our eye color, hair color, shoe size etc. but what about those things that aren’t physical? Our emotions, how we process things, how things affect us. Does that cause us to be insecure as well? I know for me, sometimes it does.
I am an extremely emotional person and I have a very big heart. I come from a family full of love, giving, and compassion. To me, it’s important for me to give my all to people or not give at all since it’s all that I know for the most part. Unfortunately, I have not always had those actions reciprocated to me, thus resulting in me getting hurt. I remember being in high school and just hated how I was, and wondering why I had such big feelings and love if people didn’t really know how to handle or accept them. I would constantly ask,”Why did God create me like this?” Or “Why can’t I be more like so & so, closed off and didn’t wear my emotions on my sleeves?” As if to say that somehow God had made a mistake, and I was the lucky person that He messed up on. I struggled for years trying to hide who I was and to not really admit that I am this person with this kind of genetic makeup. Because I would give so much to relationships, it was sometimes difficult to determine the difference between the real relationships & the counterfeits.
To this day, I still sometimes ask God why he didn’t just make me someone who isn’t emotional, and is more guarded. I realized that He gave me these characteristics so that I can show kindness and love to other people who desperately need it, and have been hurt by those who don’t know how to show emotion and love. Those people who walk around as if nothing in the world affects ten but in reality, everything does.
Psalm 139:14 says,
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are a wonder”
We are all so very special in His eyes and He made us each in our own unique ways in order to be the pieces to the puzzle that this world definitely needs. Never feel like you aren’t good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, because you are. Your job in this life is to be the best person that you can be for Him. To show love when it’s not easy or an act of kindness when we REALLY don’t feel like it. I know someone can relate! Lol.
God examines the heart. 1 Samuel 16:7 says,”Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For The Lord sees not as man see: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart”.
Pray and ask God to show your your heart. What do you need to change? What do you need to let go of? Deal with? Embrace? The list goes on. Trust Him to change your heart, mind, & perspective so that you can find a peace within yourself. Also ask Him to show you yourself through His eyes, not via IG. I guarantee, you will see a masterpiece. God doesn’t make ANY mistakes.
“People often say that ‘beauty is in the eye of the beholder’, and I say that the most liberating thing about beauty is realizing that you are the beholder. This empowers us to find beauty in places where others have not dared to look, including inside ourselves.” – Salma Hayek
As we continue to grow in Him and this in ourselves, don’t stop fighting. Keep going & be encouraged.