I got a new car back in June. A brand new 2015 Carolla. The story behind that is a testimony in itself for another day but nonetheless, I was beyond ecstatic. I had never owned a new car before, but I was absolutely committed to taking the best care of it possible as opposed to my previous car. I would wash it weekly, always clean the inside, no eating in the car, the whole nine. All until one night. I have a back-up camera that I was using to back into my friends drive-way. Unfortunately, I was only relying on my camera and not my entire surroundings. You know where this is going……..I ended up scratching a taking the license plate off of a car that was parked right in front of the driveway………to say that I was devastated was an understatement. This brand new car that I had had for only a couple of months was now “tarnished” and not perfect anymore. It was almost like, the whole perfection of it changed. Remember when I said that I was a perfectionist, yea that goes for my things as well. It obviously wasn’t a big deal, as it could have been a whole lot worse, but to me it was. I had been trusted with this thing and I messed it up by not being careful………

Does this make you think of anything? You are given this great new thing, you mess it up, then you feel like it isn’t good anymore? As if you ruined it hard on a bad decision that you made……?

This makes me think of how we as Christians can feel about ourselves in our relationship with Christ. I know I can definitely relate for sure. When we become Christians, or re-dedicate our lives to Him, we feel brand new, fresh, ready to take on the world, nothing is impossible because we now know the God who can do it for us. We are going to read our Bibles everyday, pray, post all of those “Godly” post on IG, completely make a change an be absolutely perfect. But then comes that drink, or that old fling, or old addiction that you fall into, you go back just “like you never left” and then you feel spoiled, guilty, convicted, upset with yourself and so much more. You feel like you made this big promise to Him but you failed and broke it before the words barely left your lips. It’s hard. Marked. Being in this world full of sin and self-righteousness makes things difficult. Challenges and temptations will always come your way. Probably more than before because you said that you wouldn’t do them anymore. Trust me. It’s hard, but it’s beyond worth it to continue to fight them!

Fortunately for you, getting your marks removed will be a lot less expensive than getting the ones off of my car. Because Someone already paid the price for you! Jesus, died on the cross so that all you had to do is ask Him to take your sins away. Your marks away. And to make you a new creature. JUST LIKE THAT! He’s waiting on you to give yourself to Him fully and to know how much he loves you. How much He has in store if you would just open yourself up to Him. Not saying that you have to be perfect because face it, you can’t. But just to know that in your heart you are trying and keep trying and relying on Him more and more. 

Romans 12:2 says: Don’t become so well–adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what He wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well–formed maturity in you. (The Message Bible)

Turn your thoughts to being on Him and watch what He does for you. It’s truly amazing and I believe and pray that you will get there! Stay encouraged. Keep pushing and keep seeking Him. Without Him, you will keep falling into the same temptations over an over again. You are mark-free in Jesus name!

– J. 💛