So, I hate crying. Granted, I cry all of the time because I am what many would call a “sap”. Lol. But like when something is really bothering me, like I’m beating up on myself for whatever reason, someone has really hurt me, or I’ve gotten my hope up about something, it’s almost in my nature to go off by myself and cry it out alone. Vulnerable in solitude. Though that may be normal to some, there are times when I literally will go & sit in a dark quiet room and just cry in silence to myself and then fix myself up as if nothing ever was wrong. As if to run from the world and just not want anyone to know how hurt I really am. Due to embarrassment or shame. I’ve done this for quite some time & it seemed fine until I find myself suppressing my feelings while the enemy is swirling around in my mind only making matters worse.
It wasn’t until one day. Like the Holy Spirit was telling me that instead of retreating, I need to go be around those who I know would lift me up and help me to push through whatever I was dealing with. That He could use to minister to me. Strength in numbers. Those who knew where I was coming from and could tell me what they did to push through. Strength in numbers. Those who wouldn’t judge me, but genuinely just wanted to love on me. Strength in numbers. I don’t think I’m alone when I say that sometimes it’s easier to retreat off to yourself instead of sharing your struggles with others. Shame will do that to you. Make you feel like an idiot or stupid or whatever because of your past or that “thing” that seems to keep appearing in your life.
This is why being a part of a church family is so majorly important. It matters WHERE you go to church. Who you worship with. You should leave that place feeling transformed, refreshed, challenged in your relationship with Christ, as well as feeling ready to take on the week ahead because you know that God is with you, but also that there are people who are with you as well. Strength in numbers. One of the main sayings of my church is that “We are Stronger Together” and that couldn’t be more clear. We need each other only second to how much we need Jesus. We keep each other up, pray for each other, hold each other accountable, and so much more. It’s quite an amazing feeling.
When two of you get together on anything at all on earth and make a prayer of it, my Father in heaven goes into action. 20 And when two or three of you are together because of me, you can be sure that I’ll be there.”
Matthew 18:19-20 | MSG
God is alway with us, but in those really tough times, it’s imperative that we stick together and support, pray for, motivate, and encourage each other. It’s not going to get easier but we will get through it because there is strength in numbers. Strength as we cling to each other as we reach for Christ. Ask Him to lead you to those relationships, that church, the gathering place with those who will have your back. We all need it. Be encouraged && know that God loves you and so do I.
Yours but more importantly His,