Sick of Being Behind

I’ve spent a lot of my life looking at those around me, studying them, and then comparing what seemed “better” in their world to what wasn’t so good in mine. I would think “maybe when I get my life together, I’ll have what they have.” A husband. My own place. A bigger savings account. Better clothes. Maybe then, God will open the doors that He has promised me, once I get all of my stuff in order.

I had the tendency to always feel like I was missing out on something, and that there was something wrong with me, hence why I was feeling behind. It was my fault. But then God had to open my eyes to show me that what is for me, is for me, in His perfect timing, in the perfect season. Nothing will make me miss what He has for us because He already aligned us in His perfect will anyway.

Ephesians 1:11 “In Him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will.”

If you were meant to be married, with a new baby, in a new home, in a new job, the list goes on……you would be there right now. This isn’t to say that we haven’t prolonged our transitions based on decisions, but what I’m saying is this, understand and know that there is a greater purpose and a reason for the season that you are in.

I have a strong desire to be married, but I have never fully enjoyed my single season in life until this past year. Knowing that if I was supposed to have a husband right now, I would have him. But I don’t, and that’s perfectly okay. God wants me to enjoy this time were it’s just me and Him, spending hours and hours in ministry, with my girlfriends, and taking trips  right now. I know that when I do get married, all of this is going to change. We have to appreciate the now and stop being so focused to trying to get to tomorrow. It’s called: “Coveting our next season”. He’ll reveal it when it’s time.


In recently celebrating turning 25 along with 2016 coming to a close, I thank God for His grace and revelation in my life. A quarter of a century. Another year completed. My Heavenly Father, who loves me through times when I feel lost, reminds me that He will take my burdens, and constantly uncovers more of His promises in my life. I cannot express enough gratitude.

It’s amazing those times where God has blessed us with things that we never knew we wanted, with that much more of an impact on our destinies. That’s truly allowing God to be sovereign. He literally created us, which means He knows the desires of our heart. He gave them to us! So be patient with Him if you haven’t seen something come to pass.

Bring in 2017 with thankfulness, excitement for what He’s going to do, and ready to get to work!

I love you all and pray you have a safe New Year’s Eve!

I’ll see you next year!

  • J.