So, I guess it goes without saying that it’s been a while since you’ve heard from me. Many months to be exact. And to be honest with you, I have spent much time in my mind utilizing myself as a punching bag for my lack of consistency in writing to you. I would think things like……”who’s going to read this? It’s been too long. No one cares anymore.”……And then, many months later I’ve realized a few things:
- I don’t write for people. The expected outcomes from my writings weren’t properly positioned. I write because it’s therapeutic for me, and if someone else is able to take from my openness, then that’s great.
- I have to stop giving myself such a hard time. Perfection is a false and poorly placed expectation that I have set over my life that has caused me more regret than success. Life happens in a matter of seasons. Each season serves its purpose in our lives.
- In being human, we experience the up’s and down’s of this life and, if we want to take the best from it, we much continue to appreciate, learn, and grow from it. Nothing that we experience is simply by coincidence, but more so it’s the result of a decision made by either us or God. However, if we are His Children and choose to love Him, all things are working for our good. (Romans 8:28)
There has been so much growth and perspective that I honestly don’t even know where to start. I’ll do my best not to jump all over the place (even though that’s what I do best, just ask my best friends and family) as I share my learnings with you but do be patient with me.
I have missed you. I’ll take this one writing at a time and we’ll go from there.
I have not stopped praying for you and hopefully, you can say the same for me.
I still love you and thank God for you. Talk to you soon.